December
10, 2000
I read some of the entrees and all I can say to all of
you is "You'll get tired of all this crap...which it all is.. and
then get stronger" You will learn to ignore and fight back. Then when
you think its over, you will close your eyes and pray and wake up with new
sights and a calmness that will straighten everything else out.
Keep yourself busy. Teach yourself at home and never
forget that you are beautiful inside and out and in the end the people
that hurt you will have to live with the guilt of hurting you. Try not to
trouble yourself with the dramas and put your faith in God because he does
take care of his people. That includes you.
I used to be all of you but now I am me and I'm happy
with myself. It took time and I wish I had read this when I was younger. I
would have had the strength to get through all this "Shit" But
smile because you will get through it. Maybe today you will say "damn
it I am someone special and if he/she doesn't see that then that's on them."
Dress your kids for school, take them to school and
breathe a sigh of relief that the day is almost done and you are still a
great mother or father" You are special and once you realize that you
will see things sooooooooo differently. Simply because you have made
it this far and you're here to continue loving people and mostly
yourself.
Once again. trust me: I was where you are. I am now
free. I'm still in a marriage but I have enough strength to ignore and
remember that I'm special and so the abuse is almost over. He can't abuse
me anymore and now we can work on a healthy relationship. I used to tell
him "There is nothing you can do to make me stop loving life." Well,
now I don't have to say anything.
I worked hard but when I think about it, I really had
nothing to work on but loving myself. Elizabeth
She's right; can't you just feel her pain...and
anger?
I want to read the posts.
