May 27, 2001
I wanted to thank all of the wonderful people on this board who
have helped me put my life back together. Thank you...Dr. Irene
(first and foremost) Jay, Gordon, Pam, SandyB, Nuts, Sadie, Cyndie,
DawnB, Mel, and so many others of you who are still here, helping
others. I'm grateful as well that I am entitled to consider Jurnygal
and Rachel as well amongst my friends. (I also want to thank the
person who never posts but who emailed me, you helped me grow a
great deal as well - you know who you are).
My life is very different and my divorce will be final in a few
days. I have a printout of my very first post here as well as the
responses and it is so clear how much I've grown. I've come to a
place in my life where the issues of abuse and my stbx are no longer
of primary importance. I want a normal relationship and I must let
go of the issues that have consumed me for the last two years.
I'm happy and I'm content...I've met someone who is knowledgeable
on the subject of abuse, but is not, nor has he ever been an abuser.
We have a lot in common, and although we've both had issues with our
pasts, we both face them 'head-on'. We are both very cautiously pursuing
a 'possible' future.
My children are becoming emotionally healthier by the day. I
still feel guilty for some of what I allowed them to be subjected
to....But, I'm doing everything in my power to 're-train' their
I no longer have the co-dependency problem of trying to please
everyone all the time at the expense of myself and my own needs.
Sure, at time...I backslide, but for the most part, I've found I'm
able to stand up for me and myself.
Thank you all for standing by me when I was down, thank you for
supporting me when I was unsure, thank you all for giving me advice
and assisting me along the painful path to recovery. I truly love
I may or may not be posting here as regularly as I did
previously, due to a
growing need for a non-cyber type of 'thing', but I want to wish
all of you who are struggling along in the same path I used to -
'good luck' and remember....we all basically 'make' our own luck.
You need to 'choose' your path, because when you allow someone else
to 'decide' for you, you're not in control of your own life,
Hugs and Kisses to all of my cyber Dr. Irene friends...(ps, if
anyone wants to email me, PLEASE feel free!!!!)
also known as Stormy or IamStormy
PS, I am posting a poem after this...for hope!
This prose was written for
me by a dear friend after reading my 'life story' (available on my
website Stormshelter @MSN communities).
All about her
the storm raged
near incomprehensible in
cold whipping ragged rain
icy sleet biting.
Driven to the soaking, cold
And none would go to her
prostrate against the
striving to claw her way
into the very ground
on which she lay,
seeking only shelter
from the storm.
Yet none would offer it
pausing only to push her,
back into the sucking, cold
Her own rage now explodes;
against the icy morass.
to her knees.
to be crushed
And still, not one offers a
presenting her only their
But the light in her eyes,
the very thing
which had brought the storm
and its' demons
jealously on her,
as about her,
And then her heart quickens.
placing a foot
against the slippery soil.
Her eyes flame now
with the light of her very
The storm turns
recoiling in mortal fear
from that burning
'midst the quickly gathering
spilling forth in the wake
of the storm.
I have just 2 comments: Yippeeeee!
and Thank you...
a few comments to all those wonderful people who post and
participate (and hover, thinking about getting on board):
have made this Site a wonderful community, where miracles happen all
the time. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I could not
provide this space without each and every one of you. (Even those
whose behavior I blast!)