reality check please?
Posted 30 July 2012 - 11:01 PM
I was re reading the list I posted here of the "bad stuff".
And I thought - what the heck do I think I love about this guy?
The way he walks- he is floppy. He has hyper mobile joints and it's a really unusual walk- it's like a puppy - floppy and determined.
his sense of humor
what it felt like to be loved...
that he uses a measuring cup to portion out his cerial
that he does take some initiative - when he got to AA he really "went for it" he was at the library reading, studying, he trades comodoties from home (does not make money) and takes a class- he is disciplined with his time
his focus - he's dyslexic, like me, and he got an MBA - he reads voraciousluy and has a good analytical mind (or maybe it's actually paranoia)
At the time I thought he had a heart- a really big one-
so without that big heart- what does any of the other stuff mean? Nothing. So what the hell am I doing?
I think I need the guy to just get out of here and move already.
Am I crazy or was I just confused because I could see pain in him and saw the "potential" for a heart, that really isn't there, or am I a superfical wierdo?
But what superficial person goes for a guy with no job, jail time, not so great looking,...I think I am insane...or have the lowest standards possible for a superficial person...
Posted 31 July 2012 - 10:33 PM
Posted 01 August 2012 - 12:02 PM
wow I am totally crazy.
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