January 20, 2003
Hi,
My situation is no different. I drank too much on new years eve,
blacked out, and destroyed my life. I hit my husband, broke most of
the things in my home, insulted his family, and honestly only remember
bits and pieces.
I know my husband and I have had problems in the past and have split
up and tried to make it work. We have been together for five years and
just last year we got married despite of what our families said - and
it was great for a while. We both knew we need therapy or counseling
to make our lives together stronger and to be there for each other.
My husband decided to end our marriage he also has fired me from a
business we started together, changed the checking acct., and wants me
out.
I really am trying to cope with this. I am in therapy for anger
management. It's really hard to cope with because I never planned for
this to happen and never thought the next day when I awoke how much
damage I had done. I feel hurt and very sorry for all I did and
realize that I need help. What's hard is that I lost my job, my self
esteem, and I am still very much in love with my husband. We have been
through a lot together and always had each other to lean on. I
lost my friends, my family, my job, my sense of belonging. I am trying
to be ok and don't know how. I have been looking for a job and
apartment, and it's really hard. I am paying a big price for what I
did. I am so up and down and very hopeless. I have no one to talk to
and that makes it harder.
Might someone have some encouraging words to help me believe in
myself? I am a beautiful woman and I feel ugly embarrassed and back
stabbed by the man I will always love .
Very sad... But back stabbed? I'm
not sure about that... Nevertheless, I am sure you need help!
Please, in addition to your anger management, get yourself some
individual therapy, and see a psychiatrist for your depression.
You may have more than just depression getting in your way, preventing
you from living fully. And join us for support in
The CatBox Forum.
Hang in there! Doc
